“Normal consciousness is like hypnotic sleep. Once you get a glimpse of reality behind the scenes, you wake up, never again settling for the death of ordinary life” Darwin Shaw


Direct experiences is the best way to define being in  longterm recovery from active addiction. When I speak of a life before recovery: each day waking up with dread of what “fresh hell”  awaited me…cravings, compulsion and chaos.

A family intervention, rehab, relapsing for a few lost months…before a moment of clarity in which I surrendered…and sought to be community with the help of other recovering addicts, an addiction specialist and a raft of holistic therapist, meditation and yoga teachers.

My tribe: people who inspire me to thrive are like minded  souls whose primary purpose is to end the silence and stigma of addiction and mental health issues. We are not silent. We are not alone. We are courageous, compassionate human beings.

Self -discovery sounds so much inviting than self-seeking, being of service is about connection, communication and collaboration: being available, present, and purposefully in the moment.

My lived experience with addiction awareness brings me freedom from sabotage, obsessive thinking and compulsive behaviours.

No longer dependent upon people, places or things to fix me, I love life…the grass is no longer greener on the the other side, it is inside…


Each day is new beginning.  I  continuously create  momentary gaps in the incessant thinking and chatter taking place in my  mind, and the vibrancy  of  consciousness, love and happiness  grows stronger.

I am rewatching this film – and I hope you will love as much as I do the ancient texts, wisdom and beauty captured in   “The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying” Leonard Cohen’s narrative is  sublime.